My Archilles Heel

You cannot imagine how upset and disappointed I was with myself for failing the driving test a second time.. AGAIN?! How could that be? Aren't I supposed to learn from my mistakes? I supposed I just don't learn... *stamp feet yowling 'I want my mummy!' Sigh.. Wat a kid...

Wallowing in my own despair...

Quote:
Hey Fiona, you poor girl.. Go for shopping therapy, says Janice..
Hey Fiona, let's go shopping at Paragon tonight, says Daryl..
Hey Fiona, 3rd time sure pass, says Fanny..
Hey Fiona, how many points? Don't worry, says Anna ass..
Hey Fiona, I never laugh, are you sad? says Esther..
Unquote.

Well, you bet I am sad.. Totally not in the mood for shopping. Went jogging instead.. Argh... tears brimming.. Am I never going to pass my driving? Nonetheless, thinking cationically, no one is perfect.. Maybe (or rather surely) driving is my Archilles heel.. As much as I hate facing these failures of my own doing, I am still going to continue til I get my license! To make up for my inadequacies in this area, I will pump in extra effort la..

Thank you everyone for the concern. I am fine now.. Especially after hearing from the Bensi-s! Yeah! Qinglin is coming back soon! Now, that is one highlight of this otherwise dark day!

她的故事。。。

他不是你所求，
只因他的信。
你拱手相让，
让她得到本属你的幸福。

他们走向红地毯，
谁会晓得你心中的痛。
你的强颜欢笑，
让人都猜不到你滴血的心。
你的伪装，
是你仅存的自保。

你是匹千里马，
是匹尚未遇到伯乐的千里马。
但莫愁，
因你心中的真善美正在发光。

你对朋友的义，
封死你颤抖的心。
你的无怨无悔，
叫人感动却又不禁叹傻。

成人之美是你的豁达，
暗自伤感是你的愚昧。
虽然这一天尚未到来，
你的赤子之心终究会引导你至那。

而那，便是你一辈子的幸福！
朋友啊！祝你永远快乐！

When's the 4 bensi going to reunite?

Ultimate Bensi - Qinglin!

The American girl fave - Jack!

The Cixi lookalike - Jiesi!

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Reminiscing Beijing/HK,

Revisiting the memories,

Really missing those days!

Bensi Qinglin, hurry come back!

4 Bensi-s, Hurry REUNITE!

The emperor with the sandals......... Wahahaha!

Crooning night!

It must be that the criteria to join the FuelOil Team is that you must be able to sing! It's amazing how well these people can sing! Nat can easily join the American Idol with her more than amazing voice! Or rather maybe the Barbados Idol? Hehe.. Kenny and Daryl's voice were so good that us girls who were present nearly swoon when they sang. Jeremy himself has quite a stunning voice too! In fact, all who were present can sing at least fairly well! Even myself was praised for being a good singer!! Wow... How flattering!

Prior to singing with the red table peeps and my colleagues, no one actually complimented my singing! Haha... As long as they don't put me down.. Not that I was upset or anything, since I jolly well enjoy singing and not mind that much about what the others say. Whatever they said, they din mean it with any malice anyway!

But judging from yesterday's ktv session, boys crooning well really can attract the girls! Hehe... It is really attractive when a guy you like dedicate a song for you! This was the first time that I sang with so many guys who can all sing! But it's not as if I have sang a lot with many guys at one time, since it seems quite a number of guys don't like ktv?

It was when Jeremy was singing the song <爱得正好> that I suddenly thought of Bebe! Nostalgia! Singing with him is really HIGH HIGH INTO THE SKY! Waiting for you to come back to sing together again!

女人的矛盾

当你拥有一些，你会想要得到更多…
当你一无所有，你会满足于你所拥有的…

现在的我，沉溺于家中泛滥的爱，沉溺于友人的关爱,
但我却也想要得到佳人的爱…
若每一个人都有他人生的另一半，那我的他在哪里呢?
宁缺毋滥, 这点道理我还晓得, 所以乐观的我痴痴地等!

我喜欢逞强, 不爱让别人看见我的悲伤!
我会以微笑来掩饰我的难过…
所以, 你见不着我的失落!

你对我的好,会让我产生幻觉, 只因为我是一个爱幻想的人.
所以, 若你是我喜欢的人但你却对我没有遐想, 别…
别对我那么好…
你对我的好, 是我承受不了的!

虽然如此, 但也别对我太不友善, 那我会讨厌你！
唉！真是个矛盾的女人!
女人乃红颜祸水?

经过一次深刻的创伤后, 我不会再让自己重蹈覆辙.
然而, 女人的心是非常容易感动的.
一点真心, 一点诚意 – 那是必胜秘方!

男人, 心动不如马上行动!
真命天女就在等著你的主动呢!

我的他, 你也别在拖泥带水了!
快快让我投向你的怀抱吧!
哈哈! 人生是充满希望的!

Absolute bargains!

Seems to be that I am meeting Jiesi EVERY week to do shopping! Hehe... Last week we went to Bugis, although we din buy a lot then, but we got some bargain bedsheets with comforter and an extremely fulfilling steamboat dinner!

Today, we went to Junction 8! Apart from the wonderful library which has so many books that I would love reading, there was lotsa wonderful buys!

First was the spree at the Hyun Bin's beauty place.. Hehe.. everything was going at one-for-one as long as you pay via Citibank! Charge! Jiesi, who is getting vainer by the day bought masks! I bought some body moisturiser to 'supple-lise' my skin! Tried calling Weewee whom me and Jiesi love and miss like mad, but he din pick up.. Must be busy studying for his test! Good luck! Anyway, maybe should go back to the place to get more stuff hehe... And some for Jack for X'mas...

Then, we went to OutFitter which has absolute bargains! I bought 2 tops for $30 and Jiesi bought a DRESS for $25! Woohoo! New clothes everyweek man! And bensi is going to Taipei and Egypt soon somemore! Hahaha she should really watch her budget! Well.. She complained that she doesn't want to come out with me anymore, but I think she is just jesting! She love me and shopping too much not too! Hehe

Last I bought a pair of earlings at a 30% discount! Yeah! Already looking forward to the next shopping trip!

*we miss Bebe's dance too! Wahahahha simply hilarious!

Nodame Cantabile

Nodame and Chiaki - Happily Ever After!

I love this type of romance comedy best! Really bensi show! No wonder bensi QL and Weewee love this!

As usual the main lead is cute, but he actually seems quite old. But I like... Though somehow I still prefer the Coffee Prince main lead a lot better... Awwwwwwwww....

Drive Drove Driven

Slept so much this long weekend that even my colleague and his friend was amazed by my ability to sleep.. Hehe I am quite proud of it ok! But darn! Slept so much that I told myself that I don't need so much sleep - well it was actually so that I have an excuse to catch another episode of Nodame Cantabile... Oops.. I really like this show and it reminds me a lot of the Taiwanese drama 'It started with a kiss'. NICE!

And I finally resumed driving lessons today. You know everytime I have to go for them, I feel so yucky.. But now that I have changed to Mr Tok, it is so much better. He doesn't scold me and make me feel stupid like Mr Phua. While I can understand how exasperated Mr Phua must have been at my driving 'prowess', the beating that my confidence took was stiffling. I was so baffled at how stupid an uni grad can be at such a simple task as to drive a car! Well for now, not that I have all of a sudden turned into an expert at driving, but at least there is a certain sense of exhileration felt at the speed(max still at 50 - don't you dare laugh!) that I was driving at. Hopefully I can pass this second time. If not I would have to waste more money and time and energy and effort........................... Which I am not at all inclined towards!

While it can be a pleasure to drive, my current fave is still to be driven! Hehe.. Maybe WHEN I get my license, and IF I get my car, I will learn to appreciate the ART of driving more. Right now, I am slowly culturing my ABILITY to drive so as to fully appreciate it. It seems that everytime you can do something reasonably well, only will you like it. Isn't that plain egoistic of human. Hah! But I'm glad to be human...

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And yesh! Finally got the pics that we took at the bowling alley where I got my highest score ever! WOOHOO! Any babes/hunks that interest you pple? Hey Bensi Jiesi, take your pick, I think they are all quite rich - suit your criteria!

这个汤真的很好喝！Yummy!

I am still extremely full from my dinner with Jiesi. We went for the buffet style steamboat at Bugis. It cost us $15 for the food, but I think it will cost much much more to lose the calories that we put on during this 1 hr meal!

Today was the ultimate auntie day! Too bad Jack wasn't there, although we did invite him due to Jiesi and Wansi missing him too much! Talking about this sexually undetermined person, Wah!! Jack declared one girl that he is more scared of than anyone else. She can't even hold his supple hand for a min! I wondered what she did to him? Hehe... Must be super enjoyable on her part.. But she seem like a nice ger.. Maybe Jack is more into Stephen-types recently... Can you pls make up ur mind?! Tsk tsk..

Well, today I finally bought my laptop bag... Looking professional OKAY! hehe... Don't think the auntie Lam in office can criticise my laptop bag anymore hehehe... Hope he is feeling better... Poor guy.. Those pple who give the chirpy outlook are usually the ones who hurt the most..

THEN. Me and Jiesi (Wansi had to rush off to her violin class in her dressy attire, we wonder if her instructor is darn hot? Maybe like the mainlead in Nodame Cantabile.. hehehe.. *Super nice show!!!) went to OG (where we see more aunties than people our age) and bought good bargain bedsheets that came along with comforter! Hahaha.. We were lugging the big parcels around with us as we tried to get to the steamboat place! It was really quite a hassle and a hazzard to carry such a big bag around. Some ah beng on the bus even forbid his friend to sit on the seat next to me, so that I can put my bags on it. Being the nice and considerate person that I am, I naturally rejected and struggled with my bags until I finally reached home.

Yeah.. Home...

*P/S: Will put up the bowling pictures as soon as I can.. hehe the one that I went with my colleagues and I was the top scorer among them (136). Not that high but enough for them to call me 'National bowler' Hehehe... Definitely better than Jack who rolls his balls backwards.. Wahahahahaha

Somewhere.... Over the rainbow.........

Watch this! If this doesn't touch your heart, I don't know what will! She's an amazing 6 yr old singer!
http://www.metacafe.com/fplayer/647208/amazing_six_year_old_singer.swf

I am on clouds nine, just like the little girl who won the praise from Simon! My paper ( or rather Caili's paper with my name) has finally been published in Journal of Agricultural Food Chemistry! Yippee! Hehehehe... What is a scientist if she hasn't publish any papers? (*cocky grins)

Suzie Wong

The other day, I was told by Bebe that I looked like a certain Suzie Wong. Well, seriously at that point of time, I don't know if that was good or bad. Now that I have googled it, I still don't know if it is good or bad. Hmmmm... But coming from Bebe, I think it SHOULD be meant as a compliment la? Haha...Apparently Suzie Wong is a character(a prostitute, played by Nancy Kwan) in the book/film 'The World of Suzie Wong' which was adapted into a hit film.
The book is about a young Englishman, Robert Lomax, who has just decided to pursue a new career as an artist. He visits Hong Kong in search of inspiration for his paintings where he checks into the Nam Kok Hotel, not realising, at first, that it is an unofficial brothel catering mainly to British and American sailors. However, the discovery of that fact only makes the hotel more charming in Lomax's opinion and a better source of subject matter for his paintings. He quickly befriends most of the hotel's bargirls but is most fascinated by the archetypal "hooker with a heart of gold", Suzie Wong, who had previously introduced herself to him as Wong Mee-ling, a rich virgin whose father had five houses and more cars than she could count, and initially pretended not to recognise him at the hotel. Lomax had originally decided that he would not sleep with any of the bargirls at the hotel because he would be living with them for a long time and did not want to put a strain on their relationships. However, it soon emerges that Suzie Wong is interested in him, not as a customer but as a serious boyfriend. Although Suzie Wong becomes the kept woman of two other men and Robert Lomax becomes attracted to a young female British nurse, Lomax and Wong are eventually reunited and the novel ends happily.

According to Bebe, it was some top that I wore that reminded him of her cheong sum. I think the top that I wore was a black top that had a turtleneck-like collar and showed off my sexy shoulders hahahahaha... At least some people thought so hehehe...

Wah! It's wagyu!

It was the best steak I have ever had in my 23 yrs of existence!!! The Wagyu sirloin steak at Angus Steakhouse was simply amazing! It was not too fatty, but it was so tender that just made me want to beg for more!

According to Wiki, Wagyu refers to several breeds of cattle genetically predisposed to intense marbling and to producing a high percentage of oleaginous unsaturated fat. Also known as Kobe-style beef, the meat from Wagyu cattle is known worldwide for its marbling characteristics, increased eating quality through a naturally enhanced flavor, tenderness and juiciness, and thus a high market value. Grocery stores in the United States will sell cuts of American Wagyu for $40/lb to $150/lb (€64/kg to €240/kg). Because of the Wagyu cattle's genetic predisposition and special diet including beer and sake,wagyu yields a beef that contains a higher percentage of omega-3 and omega-6 fatty acids than typical beef. The increased marbling also improves the ratio of monounsaturated fats to saturated fats. There are four major breeds of Wagyu (wa means Japanese, and gyū means cattle, or simply "Japanese cow"): Japanese Black, Japanese Brown, Japanese Polled, and Japanese Shorthorn. Japanese breed names include: Tajima, Tottori, Shimane, Kochi and Kumamoto.

While I don't know what breed I had, it doesn't matter, as long as it was delicious... Yummy... Oh man, I finally have tried the taste of a full Wagyu steak! Yeah!

Hunk? vs Dale

Once I start talking about hunks, I suddenly thought of this other hunk who gave me this notebook... Haha So of course I must record the book that he gave me.. But I really like this notebook.. And it is so sweet of him to buy it for me... If I am not wrong, he probably bought this because of the cover lady haha.. Actually there was once upon a time when I spot this hairstyle. And he already knew me then.. But then again, it could simply be just that he thinks the book looks nice? You can never guess accurately what this guy is thinking.. Although most of the time, it is either just bums or butt hahaha, which are of course the same thing!

Now this is Dale (according to one tall dark guy, who just knows it to be Dale and not Chip). Cute rite? Looks exactly like Dr Huang! But goodness, quite some people say that my current crush looks like it! I must have missed Dr Huang more than I ever admitted! Hahaha.. But indeed, I missed the times at the red tables, and of course the times trying to hardworking in front of Dr Huang too!

Tall, dark, manly AND handsome!

I think I am someone with lotsa love to give. Hehe.. I say that because every time I finish watching a drama series, I will fall irrevocably in love with the main lead. And this NEVER fails! My current love is Gong Yoo! Goodness... He is so manly with a tinge of boyishness meant to make me swoon... He is tall, dark, manly AND HANDSOME! Awwwww......

Yummy! Don't you think him really cute?!! After watching him play the sweetly loving man who disregards what others think of him loving another man(who is actually a female), I just couldn't get enough of him! So, I began watching 'Hello my teacher' but due to time constraint, I haven't been able to finish the drama yet. Nevermind, patience! One Fine Day(in which he acted too haha), I will finish it!

Awww... will my future soulmate be anything like him or the character he plays in Coffee Prince? Kekekeke