Life's a bitch but nv say die?
My eyes are super dry, my entire body feels feverish. I am sick, and has been for quite a while. I am going to miss the Sentosa hotel stay with the girls tomorrow. I feel disappointed. Not only about missing it, but also because the girls does not at all seem concerned about me being sick for almost a week, say for only CC. She said she would miss me and hoped that I can make it in the evening after resting the day away. Maybe because I am sick, thus explaining me being an emotional wreck, but I am really quite upset! Reading the emails that came nonstop during working hours about the exciting activities they were going to do without even asking about my illness(granted, apart from CC, HL was another concerned one) was some blow.
No one's working life is a bed of roses. I'm sure many of us would agree. Poor CC def will agree. So do I. When I get scolded, when I get blamed for all the mistakes that was not my faults, you don't know. You only hear the good side cos wats the point of sharing all the bads with you all when you are all already complaining about your bosses? Just continue to make the ambience one of more agitation and frustration. Perhaps I am asking too much for you to ask when I myself din say a single word. Luckily I have my family. Luckily I have CC. Luckily I still have the red table frens who at least will say 'Yes I know you are sickening but take care of yourself.' Luckily I still have Jiesi who will sms me everytime you-know-who does something to her that she think will make me jealous. Luckily. I guess maybe I am making a big fuss out of nothing and they will assure me that yes of course we will be there for you! That, I do not disagree, but it is the taking the initiative part that is eating me.
If you have seen my upset or tired face, and/or that I need to eat a lot or reward myself with good food to vent my frustration, I thank you for being there.
Not that I am really blaming anyone. It is part and parcel of growing up. I am only bitching about life. Tomorrow will be a better day!
